Cold Shoulder

When most people want to avoid someone, they usually come up with reasons to keep them at bay.
I have done this many of time not to mention received many of times. Most times, I am OK especially when its a mutual explanation.
At this particular instance, I cannot get passed the fact that someone is going out of their way to avoid or brush you off. The crazy thing is, is that they are associates who have a GREAT connection. There was laughter, joking and even reliability on each other and then, it stopped.

It's understandable when the focus shifts from joking around at work to changing your goals and outlooks on the job. However, its hard to understand that the little things you once shared like day to day chit chat and the "Hi, How are you's" are missing. When a person walks into your office and you purposely don't look at them or you pretend to "read" your computer or picks up the phone to "make a call" that IS saying something. I am fully AWARE of what is happening, I see it Loud and Clear.

I want to speak up, I want to confront, I want to make them understand that what they are doing is just mean.

If there is an issue, it should be resolved. If it can't be resolved then at least let a person know.
It's confusing when you can joke with someone one day and then brush them off the next. That is, until you need something that is work related, then you approach them as if they are a stranger you are needing something from.

By approaching them, it would be like beating a dead horse. At this point, there is nothing you can do. You just have to remind myself to not waste energy on someone who is being a jerk.

Where to begin.. hmm, well for starters this year in CA has been a tough year by far. Although, it could be worse, I cannot help but wish it were better.

I try to remind myself daily, that as long as all the bills are paid, we have food in the pantry and fridge, I am working and we have our health that all should and is actually OK. But its hard. It's hard when you want MORE.

I know we all stress about money and would like to be able to save when possible. It just seems like its a never ending cycle, or that something comes up just when you think you have a plan.

It could be that I am feeling that antsy itch of the spring weather. I noticed I get this way when the weather changes.. I WANT to change alongside with it. The Spring cleaning feeling. It makes me want to do all sorts of things.. most times, I attempt, and then set it aside.

I have been trying to find something to do with my time. I would like to volunteer, I am just needing that little bit of hand holding or push in the right direction.
hmm, a little research is needed here...

:-)

Just a bit of catching up... although I have not been here daily.. I hope to at least be here more often than not.
Last weekend was my first "girls" night out here in LA. It has only taken a year but its still happening. I have a great pal at work, who I have connected with on so many different levels. It is like we have known each other our entire lives. We didn't do anything much but stay in have a few drinks and dance to music.. all of the things I LOVE to do.. which is why it was easy for me to just be myself with this bunch of ladies and have fun.
I think it is truly unique when that type of connection happens. When you feel so comfortable with that person. It's definitely a blessing I appreciate.

This past weekend was a pretty chill weekend. We just stayed home and watched movies. We had Monday off due to the Martin Luther King holiday. So We decided to go hiking. We covered about 9 miles, at 350 elevation in about 4 hours. It was a slightly chilly but overall a GREAT hike. Something we will do again for sure.

Reflecting

Ahh, So it is nearly the end of the first week of the 2012!

I must say, so far so good.

This exact day last year marks the anniversary of my move to California. It's strange to reflect and think about how much has changed and will constantly change from day to day.

The first part of last year was a rude awakening to what plans I had for myself. Only because my plans were not in the hands of myself, but others. Now that I am in full control of what I can do. I will do the best to REALLY jump in and do everything I can to make this year not seem so scary.

I am still uncertain where my employment lies. My temp contract has been extended. I am hoping it goes to a permanent placement very soon. In the meantime, I still take it all in as much as I possibly can and remind myself. I could be worse off.
Things are tough, but I am hanging in there.

I will endeavor on my first girls night out here in CA and it only took a year, LOL.
I am starting to meet others at work. I would say this is a positive start.

2012-- New Near, New Plans, New Goals!

I have obviously been away from the blogging for quite sometime. Although, now that I think of it, I seriously should have blogged last year and the year before etc. It could have given me a better sense of perception. Not to mention the life changing experiences I made in 2011.
Oh well, I can do it now :-)
Let's start out with the reason I have found my way back.
- I need an outlet
- I need to reaffirm my goals
- I need to have somewhere to LIST them to serve as a reminder of what I should be doing.

I am not one to really make a New Year's Resolution but given I want to see positive growth from within, I feel I need to have some sort of starting ground.

So far this is what I have decided are my resolutions.

* I want to keep in better contact with EVERYONE. Not just my close group of friends.
*I want to LISTEN and UNDERSTAND OTHERS better.
* Thank People More often.
*Learn something new everyday.
*Exercise 4-6 times per week.
*Get Organized!!!
*Run a 5K and a 10K this year. Work my way up to a 1/2 marathon.

I realize we are Day 3 into the New Year, but I think it is a start.
I will continue to keep you posted.

Get Ready 2012, I am Kicking butt and taking names.

Because I got to spend just a little bit of time with you, My day was complete.

Praying for those we Love.

This time of year makes you feel really grateful for all you have. You have to remind yourself constantly of the silver lining in the not so fun things that occur on a day to day basis. I find myself constantly adding someone to my list of prayers. The girl I workout with told me she prays for all her people while she cleans houses. Although, I find myself praying when I am driving, if not for the person who just had an accident then all those who I encounter throughout the day. It's amazing how somethings constantly happen to the same people. Yet, their spirit continues to remain intact (for as much as they can hold on to).

Anyway, if you find yourself reading this, please say a prayer for some my friends and family who at the moment are having tough times or seem to always get the short end of the stick. I hope their 2009 brings better things for them.

I will just use initials.

DG- who moved both her elderly parents to Arlington from Florida, One with Cancer and the other barely able to get around. Yet fighting to keep that smile on her face.
AJ- who recently lost her job, for reasons which are not right.
SV-- for getting her stuff in order and out of the depression she has fallen into
CF-- who yesterday had 3 of her family members in the hospital for all different reasons.
BW- she needs the strength to get pass this year, heal her within and prepare her for her husbands surgeries next year.
KN-- whose five year old had to have 3/4 of his finger removed due to an infection.
MS-- pray he finds a job soon, I know there is one out there for him.
WJ-- his father just passed away this past week.

I am sure there are more, but this is just for right now.

Bless us, O Lord, and bless the time and seasons yet to come. Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain wisdom of heart. And fill this new year with your kindness, that we may be glad and rejoice all the days of our life.