Letter to God

I found myself talking to you the other night; asking for understanding of why things the way they are or how one's action can be read. Within the last few days, I found myself taking offense or thinking I did something wrong. Then it suddenly hit me as to what was really going on. I realized, you had been listening to me and by the mysterious ways you work you helped me. I just wanted to say Thank you.
I am sure you listen to me often, its just a matter of me paying attention and noticing that things happen when I open up to you and trust in you. Thanks again.

My Playlists..

I figured.. why not write about the songs I chose.

They all have some meaning to me or another mainly in the lyrics.. and they are all so totally random but its what I like at the moment or songs I have not heard in a while, that I have the chance to group together.

Let's see. In No particular order..

Obviously, My Next Thirty Years relates to a blog previously posted.

Forever Young, Rod Stewart-- I love this song, I love Rod Stewart, I always have. When Pampers put out a commercial a few years ago with this song and animals and their lil baby animals, it was a teary eyed moment for me and made me love it even more. (Yes, I cry at commercials).

Love you till the End,-- for those of you who have seen 'P.S. I Love You', you might recognize it, this is currently one of my favorite soundtracks at the moment, its a perfect love song. I love You Snakeface.

If I ever Leave this World Alive-- Also from 'P.S. I Love You'.. its just a great easy listening soundtrack. Definitely check it out.. there are plenty other songs to enjoy these two are just my most fave.

Something About Us-- A song that was introduced to me by my very own Justine Faceman. He sent this to me on a "mixed cd" once in a blue moon ago. It suited us at one time, but let's just say we have moved passed it. Thankfully. It was sweet though.

I've Been Watching You-- this song for some reason makes me teary eyed thinking of the story it tells..its too cute, and I'm sure all my girls with lil boy's will soon have stories like this one.

Under the Milky Way-- just an all time classic.. reminds me of high school, just hanging out when things were simple.

Wild Horses-- Ahh...Mazzy Star and Justine's Woman Hope Sandoval on vocals.. not to mention the song alone is a classic as well. I always liked the female version of it, especially when a certain duo Megan and Kristy would sing Karaoke to it back in the day. *** this is not Mazzy Star, it's The Sunday's it was what popped up when I did the search.****

Together Again-- Just a happy song that reminds me of my Dad. Every once in a while, I get in the mood of missing him. This song just hits it head on.

On Call--I love this guy's voice.. its kind of sexy in a crazy way..but it just reminds me of my friendship with Ronda.. we can not talk for days but no matter what we are on call for one another.

Keep Me Hangin' On-- Ahh this one has several meanings, Right now, it's a song that I wished a friend would have listened to and considered stepping away from the mess they have been drawn into.

Life's Been Good---This is just a fun song.. hah, I love it.. it reminds me that all the little things I worry about aren't as bad as they could be and Life's been good to me. Maybe not with a Mazaratti, but it's been good enough.


I am sure these will change in a few weeks or so.. but for now you can enjoy and Know why i chose them.

It Finally Happened!!!

Me, My Grandma and Mom this Past Christmas Eve.

After years, Five to be exact, my Mother and Grandmother (her Mom) are finally taking the steps to make good and be a part of one another's lives again. Although I never agreed with the way things fell apart, I am extremely happy that my Mother decided to take responsibility for her actions and apologize to my Grandma for the way things were handled and her part of the ordeal.

They say actions speak louder than words, and while they still have a long way to go to "Normalcy" I was super impressed and happy that My Grandmother came to my Mom's 60th Birthday Party. This was only a small gesture, but its the best one she could have done to show that they are on their way to making amends.

I am sure they have along way to go, and hopefully for age and health sake on both of their ends, it won't be too long for things to be OK. In the meantime, I will still continue to encourage the pictures I would force them to take together or with me.. I know they wanted it just as much as I did, just too stubborn to admit it.. ( I know where I get it from).

Saturday night ended on a good note, My Mom had a great 60th birthday and I was happy for that. That night I prayed and then Thanked God that my Mom and Grandma are at least trying.

On an end note:

My Dad would always say, "Family is all you have". This is something he instilled in us and made sure my sister's and I knew this, so we would be there for one another when he was gone. It's something I will instill in my children or family as much as I can. It's the truth, a lot of times when friends aren't there to help, you have to rely on family to get you through the tough times. No matter how crazy things can be.