If I ever have a daughter..

I want her to be just like you!

Addison; Age 3

This past week has been such a whirlwind. I have constantly been on the go, but would do it all over again if asked to.

Sunday evening I met up with my sister and her family for dessert at IHOP, they were eating dinner, and I had just eaten, so I opted for pancakes for dessert, because they smelled soo good and were hot and fresh. YUM-E!

There I sat next to Miss Addison, my sweet little niece. We played of course, as she was hugging me, she would tel me how much she had missed me. (it had only been a couple days) but it was the sweetest thing to hear.

After dinner, we headed over to my Grandma's house. So she could light a candle and say a prayer for baby Cason. It was a Spanish ritual/remedy or something, because he is jumpy when he sleeps, they think something scared him, and that something is Addison. Only because she is sooo loud haha, What she did was light a Mexican candle and said a prayer for him, bringing him good vibes etc. Growing up this way with the Spanish rituals, you never ask you just do, whether its mental or not.

In the meantime, Addison and I go outside to play. Outside at my Grandma's is where I spent a majority of my childhood; Playing with the neighbors and or jumping on trampolines, or climbing a huge jungle gym, that one of the Dad's built. Of course Addison is only three and many of those things are no longer there, Just the houses that all somewhat look the same but different.

The thing about Addison, is that sometimes she is fearless, and always willing to try it once, Not sure if this is a good thing or not, but I like that, I might even envy that in her a little bit. I know it's because I let fear control me as a child and it continues to defeat me to this day.

She and I played in the yard, and I taught her to climb on the fire hydrant and sit on it. (this is with me spotting her of course) she thought that was the neatest thing in the world.. she had to go and show her Daddy. It was just the cutest.

Being at my Grandma's and showing Addison all the things I used to do to keep busy was really fun and heartwarming. Not to mention taking me back in time. I showed her how we used to jump over the little trench that would fill with water when it rained, and she would do it, and ask.. "like this?". Then we went to the backyard where there was a ditch, a ditch we used to play in and fish for crawdads.. heh. However, today this ditch is not quite as big and there is a fence that has been placed there, My grandma's house backs up to Academy. As we were walking back to the house, she asked me to hold her because of the "coyrotees". My Aunt Josie told her to be careful out there because they saw one once. haha. This really just cracked me up. She had no clue as to what a coyote is, but it was the funniest thing to hear come out of her mouth. haha.

Anyway, the rest of the week, we spent every evening together.. well almost. One night we went shopping, rode the carousel at the mall and visited my Aunt Mary in her assisted living home. then another night we went to the Ranger game, where she showed me how to cheer and wave my arms like a Bird for Marlon Byrd. Then yesterday, she called me at work, wondering when I was coming over, just to play with her. She was waiting patiently, and asked me to drive "fast" to get to her as soon as I could.

I guess you could say, I am in love with my niece. I admire her and wish for only the best things in life for this little girl. I don't have children of my own, but she has touched my heart in an indescribable way. I pray and hope we continue our bond and connection that we have.

And when the day comes that have a little girl, I want her to be just as fearless, wacky and zany as her cousin Addison.